Slippery Aspirations
Apr 30, 2018 by Analieze Cervantes
Nothing makes sense as I stare off, trying to find the answer to everything, anything. I feel more lost than in my last year of completing college. Feeling as though, no one will give me the chance to thrive and shine. I feel sometimes being stucked in a job that does nothing for my degree. Feeling more sucked in each day that goes by. Just hoping that by applying to more jobs... Someone will finally say, "Yes, we'll take a chance on you." Where my dream doesn't seem too out of reach.
Where I can finally breathe.
Where I can finally let go of everything that haunts me.
Nothing makes sense as I stare off into the distance, trying to find my tune to the harmony inside my head. I feel more broken each day. By so many rejections, by being NO ONE to so many people. Sending my work in and finding no one who will take a chance on me just like my dream job. I want to be a writer, a successful one. I want to be able to do the things I love and to be strong in it. I don't want to be afraid, but being afraid becomes more familar as time goes by. I'm weary of being told NO. I'm weary of fighting for what I want but, ultimately being knocked down right away.
No matter how much I share. No matter how much I show you how much I want this... It will never be enough to value your own dreams, it doesn't even compare. I just don't see why everything seems like a blur. Why I feel like I'm lost-- no where to turn and no one to talk to. I feel reckless and broken. I feel like nothing I do will ever be enough to get me where I want to go. I feel hopeless and sad. Feeling as though everything will collapse the more I touch it.
I don't want that.
I never did.
Somebody, help me get where I need to be. Take a chance on me. I won't let you down.
Where I can finally breathe.
Where I can finally let go of everything that haunts me.
Nothing makes sense as I stare off into the distance, trying to find my tune to the harmony inside my head. I feel more broken each day. By so many rejections, by being NO ONE to so many people. Sending my work in and finding no one who will take a chance on me just like my dream job. I want to be a writer, a successful one. I want to be able to do the things I love and to be strong in it. I don't want to be afraid, but being afraid becomes more familar as time goes by. I'm weary of being told NO. I'm weary of fighting for what I want but, ultimately being knocked down right away.
No matter how much I share. No matter how much I show you how much I want this... It will never be enough to value your own dreams, it doesn't even compare. I just don't see why everything seems like a blur. Why I feel like I'm lost-- no where to turn and no one to talk to. I feel reckless and broken. I feel like nothing I do will ever be enough to get me where I want to go. I feel hopeless and sad. Feeling as though everything will collapse the more I touch it.
I don't want that.
I never did.
Somebody, help me get where I need to be. Take a chance on me. I won't let you down.