My Brain Remembers
My brain remembers
Every touch,
Every moment,
And every kiss.
A flash of lightning,
That only lasts for seconds,
But lingers on for miles.
The things you said.
The things you promised.
And the word forever stamped
Onto my heart.
Made only for me.
My brain remembers
The way the corner
Of your lips cracked
Into a smile.
Remembering the soft
Gaze as you looked
Into my eyes, never failing
Yet, always wondering.
If you were good enough
To hold a heart like mine.
And you were good enough.
Because I chose you.
My brain remembers
The way you dug
Your face into my hair.
Pulling me closer
So I wouldn't fade.
If only you had realized
How I see you.
A heart full of gold.
A dream full of promise.
A warmth that nestled
Me into a sleep beside you.
Remembering you.
The way you were.
So talented that
It took my breath away.
Hoping I was good enough
Hoping to live the rest
Of my days, studying
Your every flaw,
Your every strength.
However, falling short.
Forcing me to live
Life without you, again.
Something I didn't want.
My brain remembers
The way your hair
Fell at the nape of
Your neck.
Remembering how
I raked my fingers
Between the strands.
Captivating you into a dream.
Snuggling closer to me.
The heat of your body,
Bringing me safety.
A home.
The flash of lightning
Reappears by the places
I revisit, the moments
I encounter.
By the food I eat
And the movies I see.
Imagining your back
In front of me.
Constructing your body
Again inside my head.
Keeping the memory alive.
In case I don't have another moment.
My brain remembers,
Every touch,
Every moment,
And every kiss.
Recreating the stage,
Where I saw you play
The piano, just before
Christmas.
Replaying the notes,
And hoping you'd come home.
Lighting beaming across
The black screen in my mind.
Redefining every moment.
Wanting to obliterate them
But, knowing I don't want
To forget how I felt.
The scars on my skin
Are only a reminder
That you existed.
Touching my heart.
Feeling the heartbeat
Of yours, as I lay my
Head on your chest.
Feeling happiness embed
My smile, a smile that
Has dissipated in this
Time of separation.
Knowing I'd never forget.
So, my brain remembers
Every promise,
Every moment,
And every argument.
Knowing how I felt then.
Wondering if it will ever comeback.